This blessing is a magnet on my refrigerator:
I'm feeling a bit lost this week.
I have shed too many tears of late. Viet and I have joined with different family and friends to celebrate the lives of two great souls in the past two weeks. Two lives taken abruptly from this world.
And as my heart is weary and quick to buckle, I am struggling to find a place to be at peace in the midst of such profound sadness.
I have wished so hard that our love (and all the love. from everyone) would surround those who are most deeply in mourning, and if only for a few moments, here and there, give them peace. a space to breathe, to smile, to laugh.
I have prayed so hard that we would all have guidance and arms to lean on when we/they feel the ground beneath us moving.
And mostly, I have just been shaking my head a lot, wiping away the tears, looking up, and trying to shade my eyes from the sunshine. In the midst of so much sadness, the sun is shining bright and hard here in San Fran. Today it hit close to 80 degrees. There is no cold. and no grey.
I'm afraid today I don't have anything more profound to say. Just that I can't write today about anything but loss.
and this: we will remember. We will carry you with us always.
We will not forget that this one life is precious and beautiful and fleeting.
We are one family.
I hope those that are struggling the most today and in the days to come feel the love around them.
May every sunrise hold more promise,
and every sunset more peace.