This year, probably mostly because of my epic trip to Alt, it feels like February is like a second new year, and I’ve got some resolutions! I am ready and revving and taking chances. I’ve got plans y’all. Big plans.
But with all that creative goodness comes a high pitch nervous energy that is bouncing around me like a force field. I’ve felt very anxious this week, and you know what I think the nervousness stems from? Excitement. Which reminds me of a memorable moment:
On the plane ride to Alt last year, my friend Stace was chatting with a successful young filmaker/entreprenuer who was thoughtful and engaging and giving her loads of awesome advice.
And I’ll never forget this one thing he told her at the end of their conversation (I was sitting on the other side of her). He said something to the effect of,
You know that fear you get deep down in the pit of your stomach when you’re afraid of (fill in the blank: a new idea, a risk, a change, an opportunity)?? That fear. . . well, it’s really excitement. We just don’t feel it often enough to recognize it.
And I just thought YES. How often are we truly, passionately so excited about something that we are feeling it so strongly that a) it’s scary and b) we don’t even recognize that it’s really that rare feeling of being alive/inspired/awake. My new friend Chris wrote about this phenomenon (also known as “gut churn”) on Monday on his blog.
So, February, I feel your gut churn deep down. I’m currently carrying it around like a bowling ball, and you know what I’m planning to do about it? I’m going to just. keep. feeling it. I’m not going to ignore the feeling or pretend its not there. I’m going to embrace it. And every time I feel it really strongly, I’m going to take a chance! Let’s do this! Do you have something deep down you want to do, but you’re too afraid to try? Sink into that feeling and spend some time with it. Maybe it’s a good thing.
February is a magical month in our house. We fell in love in February, Viet’s birthday is in February, and we got engaged in February. Given so many awesome reasons to celebrate, you can bet I’m going to keep it Golden around here just like I did in November, December, and January.
Here are the fun things I’m focusing on this month. Y’all know what else is reason to celebrate this month?! It’s also Mardi Gras! I grew up with Mardi Gras, and I sure do miss it. But I’ll keeping it alive right here in my little corner of San Fran:
Capture (Photography): Still loving Fatmumslim’s monthly photo a day prompts. Join along! You can get all the details on her blog. You can follow my progress on Instagram: @notmerelyliving.
Happy Weekend Friends. Hope it treats your right.