Sometimes I completely forget I’m pregnant. As week 15 comes to a close, I’m starting to feel more pregnant but still feeling pretty fake-pregnant most of the time. On a busy day, I’ll just be going about my business and then whoa, it hits me, I’m preggers! Since I’m finally starting to have a bit of a bump (most days it still just feels like a little extra breakfast, lunch, or dinner), it seems about time to start weekly Bean checkups.
As I get two full weeks of the second trimester under my belt, I finally feel myself exhaling out my anxiety. I’m much calmer and more secure now that we’re out of the danger zone. That said, there always seems to be something new to worry about. I wonder how the Bean’s doing in there, constantly shocked that a baby the size of a small fruit (I lose track of which fruit you are this week, Bean) is inside my stomach. I find myself yearning to be showing more so that the pregnancy will feel more real, but I know that time will come all too soon.
I’m about to be a mom. That’s going to take a while to sink in, but I keep saying the word mom and thinking of me. I can’t quite wrap my mind around it yet.
And still I somehow know that we will always love each other enough to make it through anything. I can’t wait to be your mom. Your dad and I are already in awe of you my little Bean. So just tuck in and keep growing.