You amaze me. You turned five months old yesterday, and you’re so remarkable. You’re strong and bright and curious. You’re soaking in the world around you constantly.
I miss you during the days when I’m at work. I miss you a lot, but lucky for me (and for you), your cousin Cathy is taking amazing care of you.
The tears are rolling down my face as I write this because I’m so very grateful for Cathy. I can’t describe what it feels like to never worry about you for a moment during the day. I never worry during the day, not for a moment, because I know you’re with your cousin who loves you. She plays with you and takes you on walks and does tummy time with you. She holds your little hands as you learn to balance and she rocks you to sleep and she wipes away your tears. and I am so grateful. Years from now you will not remember these days, but I will never forget them.
Cathy sends me updates during the day, little notes and photos. She updates me on how you’re eating and sleeping and playing. You’re learning new things and discovering new things. Here are some of the newness from this week:
forts (Cathy says you’re going to be a lover of forts. I’m excited.)
My sweet daughter, I live for you. You inspire me every day to be better, to live simpler, to be more present.
I’m working on rushing less, stressing less, smiling more, and being more calm.
I love you desperately, my dear. I love your smile and your laugh. I love your faux hawk and the way you scrunch your nose. I love your sparkling hazel eyes and the way you always try to do crunches in the bath rub. I love the way you stroke my face. I love the way you talk in the morning, it’s like you’re saying hello to the day.
You are so loved, my Beanshine, always,
*Almost all photos taken by cousin Cathy. 🙂