You’re one month old today! One month. four weeks. 30 days. It has been one of the fastest and slowest months of my life.
We have watched you grow and change over the last month with awe. Although you still seem so tiny, you’re really starting to fill out! I looked back at the letter I wrote to your sister at 4 weeks, and I cited a Maya Angelou quote that still rings true, “This is a wonderful day. And I’ve never seen this one before.” Each and every day with you is wonderful, my love.
We’ve been slowing down since your arrival and trying to be grateful for our little family of four. This week I’ve thought a lot about living intentionally. It’s so easy to get caught up in the routine of the day to day-work, school, rest, repeat. This past month all of those routines have disappeared, and we’ve been lucky enough to have some uninterrupted time to care for one another and to welcome a new life into the world (you!). And even though we haven’t been in control of how we used our time (you’ve pretty much dictated that :)), we’ve been able to me so much more present in the moments.
In the span of your life, my love, a month will most often pass by very quickly. Don’t forget to treasure the moments. Live your life fully by slowing down enough to note and appreciate all the small, magical miracles happening all around you.
This week, for me, those moments were:
*watching your dad give you a bottle for the first time. The love in his face and the way he took so much care:
and every bottle since then. It takes a lot of love and patience to give you a bottle these first few days, because you’re still learning how to drink from them, it can be pretty tricky and frustrating. Lucky for you, your papa has unending patience.
*noticing that you flex your big toes just like your dad. This is/was mind blowing to me. I literally do not have the ability to flex my big toes like that. This may seem silly, but when I noticed you stretching back those big guys it was so magical to me! your toes! just like your dad’s!
*feeling the weight of you in arms. Just that feeling of your small but dense, warm little body snuggled up next to me is such a magical feeling that I don’t want to forget. It’s so grounding–the feeling of you in my arms.
*seeing the deep contentment in your face after nursing and getting a nice bath. This calm and peace and feeling of safety on your face. It makes me feel like we must be doing something right:
A few other small observations of you this week:
-I’ve been so impressed by your presence and your spirit. You seem so aware and alert. You are strong. You’re already picking up your neck and turning your head.
-You prefer to be held. You won’t really sleep lying down just yet unless it’s in your bassinet at night. We can rarely get you to sleep in there during the day. If you’re fussing, you usually calm down as soon as you’re picked up.